LastThis is it, the last thing I heard, before I died.A song so simple, a calm melody, a placid sound.Time ran out, clocks burned with fire, ashes remain.Accidentally on purpose, life surrenders in the end, to death alone.
PorcelainPowerless, alone, unwelcome, from the start.
ExistenceOne last time, we'll fight LIFE.
SomedayHappiness, farewell,good luck.Joy, swept under the rug.Maybe someday,we'll meet again.
OneOne life to live,one soul to give.One place is home,one house I've known.One friend to love,one sky above.One time to hope,one telescope.One is only alone.
AnnihilateControl, destruction, it's come to this.
The MasqueradeA fake smile,sarcastic laughter.They all stare,as your heart beats faster.No one knows,what's deep inside.But suddenly,right before their eyes;Your transformation,it has begun.Now they know,you fear the sun.
BelieveFreedom is free, just trust me.
ShadowCastingA shadow of who I used to be,is all I will ever see.A hallucination, not reality,lured into a false sense of security.Nowhere to run,no place to hide.Fly away from here,my dear.Because a shadow of me,is all you will see.
Run It Back AgainPain, Frustration.It was worth it.
Remember Me?Hey there, stranger,remember me?You were right,nothing ever came of me.A messed up child,never allowed to be a kid.Forever criticized,can't do anything good enough."Don't mess up,"a curse you put upon me.That's all I ever was,just a thing to use.I took your orders,pure sadness and frustration hidden with smiles.Laughter kept the tears away,you caused it all.Hey there, stranger,remember me?I was right.Nothing ever came of me.
PrisonBitterness and anger,it's all you see.That's less than you deserve,take a look back.Left me here, alone, unwelcome, and unwanted,I can never forgive you.Critical of everyone's intentions,but only by force.All you ever really gave me was skepticism,locked me in an inescapable prison.
Decisions, DecisionsWho cares about these crazy things?I have decisions to make.Not what colour car to take,there are lives at stake.Mine.One that means nothing,to me or anyone it meets.Yes, I've got something to hide,something you can't see.All alone.All I am.
InvitedWait, Wake, for freedom comes today.
so many colorsThe bright sunlight is shining on my faceBlinding all my sightI cannot see past itThe white is far too brightBut through my closed eyelidsI can feel a chromatic greetingI cannot waitFor our first meeting------------I can see so many colorsIn the blink of an eyeEven the radiant sunIs not most vivid in the skyThis is what you do to meYou put colored rain drops in my heartAnd in the end it's all that I will see------------The dead of night won't show me what is realTaking all my sightBut your shade-piercing colorsDispose of obscured fright------------I can see so many colorsIn the blink of an eyeEven in the darkest nightI don't even have to tryThis is what you do to meYou put colored rain drops in my heartAnd in the end it's all that I will see-------------All your colorsWill save my soulThank you my love-------------But through my closed eyelidsI can feel a chromatic greetingI cannot waitFor our first meeting-------------I can see so many colorsIn
translate my heartyou are more difficult to figure out then the hardest equation.and I never liked math.or science.or you.but i love(d) the idea of we.of us.of--i need to keep my mindouth shut.and get over it.over love.over you.but i don't know how to live if you aren't here.i'll try anyway.and i'll still faill.
One last goodbye-The Iris seriI feel your body in my armsso small and fragileNuzzling into my chestbreathing shallow deep breathsYou then look up into my eyesand whisper the words I love youA tear falls from my eyeand I repeat the sameI then squeeze you tighthoping to never let gocombing my hand through your hairI feel you cryBut alas it has to happenI let go and look into your face on more last timeTears stream down your cheeksaccentuating your hazel eyesYou look down as if your gonna collapseknees wobble, but you stay upOnce again you lift your head to look into my eyesand whisper, one more final timeI love you...........
THROUGH SOMEONE ELSES EYE p2His body was cold, I could feel it as I rested my forehead on his shoulder. Why was I letting myself get so close to him and why was he accepting it so willingly knowing perfectly well that I wanted to sleep with him from day one? I realised then that I couldnt understand Laken very well. As soon as that thought hit the conscious part of my brain, it didnt take a lot for me to notice that I couldnt understand anyone around me. I question their reasons, I doubt their feelings and take advantage of them before they can do it to me.My thoughts last until his cold delicate fingers touched my cheek, stroking me like I was a hurt kitten, so innocent and caring it almost made me feel dirty for feeling aroused. I didnt know if Laken was aware of the dangerous game he was playing. It was difficult enough to hold back when he was sitting across the room, and now he was touching me, letting his scent intoxicate me.Like a blackhole, I could sense emptiness grow
THROUGH SOMEONE ELSES EYESPART IWhen I got back from the gallery, the house was empty. Its stressful, spending all day wearing a mask and telling myself I must smile and I must be articulated or even that I must keep the reputation I built up over the years. All these musts drain me in ways I couldnt be able to express in words, but if I had to I would say it feels like a needle, puncturing the same sore spot, over and over again, digging deeper as time passes by. Lani says I must get used to it, but I cant and probably never will. My reward is the probability of having someone to fuck at the end of all the torture, but sometimes, actually most of the time, I ask myself if its really me whos gaining something.A couple of hours later, Laken arrived. I was surprised he was even out. Usually hes in, only going out for photographs, but it was a rainy day and I didnt think he would take Jacqueline in those conditions. Its hard to accept the fact that I re
Left alone - Eiji.AndrewEiji wasnt a big person. He was very much on the smaller side of things. His temper, just the same as his height, was legendarily short. Andrew had held off telling him about how hed been feeling recently just because of that.What do you mean youre feeling lonely? Eiji scoffed, I know I work a lot but can't be lonely. I'm not lonely, and we live together. How does that even work?.Andrew groaned, I tell you Im feeling lonely and you immediately throw it off because youre not. He stood up, clenching his fists, Youre lucky I dont even think to mention youre not lonely because youre fucking anyone who wants it.Oh, dont shoot that gun. Eiji warned.Andrew was fuming, and he was swearing - and only two minutes into the argument. This wasnt going to just blow over.Are you really lonely or are you just angry Im getting some away from you?I
mortalityIt was all happening in slow motion, he didn't have time to think, just to stand there. All he could hear was rushing noise, and bright lights in his eyes, making it hard to see anything else. He couldn't understand what was happening, why things had slowed down. He turned his head to the side to look at Logan, but he couldn't see anything but white light, that's when the terror hit and reality kicked back in, but he still couldn't move.Sho felt a small scream catch at the back of his throat as the truck blared its horn, it was suddenly rushing at him faster than it was before. He didn't have time to move, not that his legs were obeying him anyway. He felt rooted to the spot, by some unearthly force, but it was the fact that he couldn't see Logan which was more terrifying than the truck rushing at him.He hadn't told him he loved him, or got to say good bye. He hadn't even met Sakurai-sama, and he was going to die. Sho glanced around again but still couldn't see Logan. Finally he was
EnslavedThese chains they made,to hold you down.Surely you will break them.And when you have,the world is yours.The ultimate place of freedom.